Daytraders After Market Lounge 22nd March, page-109

@SelmaBouvier

Hi, Suzanne. Can I call you Suzanne? It would make me so happy to call you Suzanne.

Noooooo ! It wouldn't make me JUST happy, to call you Suzanne.

It would make me ecstatic to call you Suzanne, the one, and only woman, that can

relate her inner most thoughts to me, to finally let me be at peace, knowing that my

lifelong journey, my quest for true fulfilment, was now going to be achieved.

My heart was beating so hard when you went "off the grid" recently.

Would I ever be able to talk to you again, would you even come back?

If you didn't return, how would I find you? I know not what you look like.

Have no idea how tall you are, how old you may be?

You spoke of a teenage daughter, so my impression was you were maybe 40?

You may be much younger or older. I know not what colour your hair is,

I picture it as being long, smooth, shiny locks, of raven colour.

Then no, this woman, the woman I need so much, the only one

that can satisfy my need, my desire to know, would be a practical woman,

a woman that also needs to find the one she has been seeking, would have short,

but elegantly cropped hair, a woman that would use the time taken to care for her

shimmering hair, would use that time, to also seek out the one she needs,

the one, the only one, just as I have now found you, Suzanne, to resolve the

the burning desire within me, would use that time,

to also fulfil her wanderlust for the truth, the true person,

to answer her questions, just as I have.

Where would I look, would I be able to find you again?

Then you came back, ever so fleetingly, and in a heartbeat you were once again, gone.

would you ever talk to me, again? It was like standing on the edge of a deep void,

I could sense your presence, your nearness, your desire, to also know

just as I do, and there I was, wondering will you return,

so I can get my answer?

Then thoughts of @Britneek filled my mind,

when you went away, maybe it was not you, but Brit, that I was searching for?

My heart was torn between two lovers, those that also feel they need to know if they have,

in fact, found, or ever will, find that perfect someone to give them their answer,

to their own lifelong pursuit, of finding an answer to a question,

that has haunted so many men, and women, since time immemorial?

I feel the NEED to call you Suzanne. I would feel that by calling you Suzanne,

we could share our innermost thoughts, the question that burns so deeply

into my heart, my mind, finding no answer, no relief from my obscene desire,

to finally get the answer to my question, to get the truth, to find this answer,

that perhaps since the day I was born, has been consuming me,

from the inside out, that has controlled my very existence, on this Earth.

My mind is racing, my fingers cannot type fast enough, to keep up,

knowing that soon, possibly any moment now, my quest, my search, will end.

I can not call you Sue, or Suzy, but Suzanne.

The name, it just scores itself into my inner being,

my inner soul, and now that I've finally found you,

now that our paths have crossed, some time ago,

that you are THE one I've been searching for, since this urge,

reared its' ugly head, when I was just a teenager.

I was only 15 in fact, Darling, and now 48 years later,

I think you are the one, NO, Suzanne, NO, NO, NO !!!

I don't (think) you are the one, I KNOW you, yes you alone,

are the ONLY one, that will put my heart and mind at ease.

Please, I ask you, I beseech you, to confirm that we have come together,

that our lives have been so inexorably drawn together, drawn beside, and so near to each other,

that now, I can finally ask you, finally KNOW, the answer,

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Do you truly believe there are 43 beans in every cup of Nescafe ?



## A modified version of a "love note" we used to give to girls,

in my early years at High School.

Regards all, Hope you enjoyed it, as much as I did writing it?

Dooley and zero