my life is as good as over, page-56

sorry to have upset you john, but I am upset that some people aren't taking me seriously.

I came over from NZ seven years ago and I have no family in Australia. I am 41 years old and don't have a partner and no friends. I have invested all of my life savings in the market. My family back in NZ don't know about that and I can't bring myself to tell them.

I am so lonely. This is the only real outlet for me. I am so desparate that the market turns for me. If not I am going to live a very sad life. Sadder than it already is.