"You will need to pretend, your a child on lets say, Jesus's knee."
This is not possible or desirable my friend as neither you nor I are children .. except when you let your childish emotions and yearnings rule.
If God had only wanted children He would not have created beings obliged to grow.
I think you place a narrow literal meaning on what Jesus was conveying by "become as little children" without understanding to whom he was speaking and what he was asking them to consider.
"1 Corinthians 13:11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things."
Now we ought to be more concerned with understanding what it means to grow and mature.
If you hope to follow Jesus, then consider his example.
Luke 2:40
"And the Child grew and became strong. He was filled with wisdom, and the grace of God was upon Him."
Luke 2:52
"And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and man."
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Now young wotsup, you did not address my question about the school desk and Bible knowledge examination and how you see the famous Christian "judgement day".
Perhaps you thought it was only tongue in cheek ?
Not so.
Words and numbers are not the thing itself they are symbols representing it.
A map is not the place.
The question is what do you actually DO ?
How do you actually live your life ?
What are you spending your precious life energy on ?
I'm not asking for an answer just raising the question.
Have you realised yet you are but a short step away from pounding the Perth CBD with a big sign which says "Repent, the end is nigh" ?
Do you appreciate how worried your wife is about you ?
Unfortunately it's doubtful that any of this will sway you in the slightest.
A full blown
idée fixe is very difficult to free oneself from, especially when it is considered a virtue.
You should do some impartial research on that condition.
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