Hi Maaze,
I can totally relate to what you are going through though i dont have the number of options you have.
Mate all i can say is don't give up - the fat lady has got the mic in her hand but she hasn't sung a note lol.
For the life of me i dont know why but i still believe there will be a chance in the not to distant future to get out of this with minimal damage.
Major balls of steel required though.
TF