its ok Sabine i too have made many mistake i am lucky that i made a profit on ssm and lost the money i gained from it rather than lose my own money. i think we have all gone thru what u have. its ok i find this game teach you a lot of things how to bargain, psychology, overcome your fears, take risks and so much more when u look at it those skills u gained is priceless and will serve u well throughout all your life.
1 min silence for all day traders who have lost money on their first couple of trades. lol
