Polski, while i appreciate the reply, it seems i have somehow hit a nerve? My family is great, my mrs understands to survive and create a future i am choosing to work 60hrs. Im not complaining or saying "poor me", so i hope its not how i come across. As for my background, i was a academic kid who topped my school in accounting and maths (not G&T though), went to uni straight out of school majoring in accounting and finance. Came in the top 10 in my uni for accounting, but dreaded the thought of working in an office for my life, so took my part time job as full time, which i still have. I make kayaks for a living, and while work is no longer challenging because i have applied myself and come close to mastering it, i very much enjoy what i do. To get an idea of what i do finnkayaks.com My original post was for advice, because im sure im not the only one to have felt this way....I know cause im not that special :-) Just looking for ideas to spark some interest in my life