ufos...again!, page-2253

The answer you're seeking doesn't exist in the format you want, or in a format that will ever appeal to your mind. That's true for everyone.

If you really want to understand anything about the 'other' (incl. religion/spirituality) it's not going to be translatable into words, and certainly not logic. That's just how it is. You can resist it, but it doesn't change the fact. So all the words we write here to each other are ultimately meaningless. You either find out for yourself, through your own inner work, or leave it altogether. It's never going to "make sense" in the way you want it to.