living upto your name i see here is some psycho babble for you mate the name you chose is affecting your spirit
i know you wont understand it but over time you will, then maybe consider the other points i mention
after 40 years in current system then you have a nastier spirit who will be among you only to be worse in this and next life/s and no record, they prey on you and you wonder why, i am telling the whole picture, i know its not what TPTB tell you, i have nothing to gain, i am warning you off whats being produced from blindness
they are unstoppable, i have shown the options you have, i cant do any more than that, its upto each individual to seek the truth and make a decision,
all things are from cause and effect
if you think killing them is punishment your being simplistic and making your situation worse