evolution is for monkeys, page-329

I hope I dont have a bias. I find life sciences interesting. I believe evolution is happening but Darwins theory doesnt explain it. Mutation and natural selection does occur but it isnt enough. I consider spontaneous creation unlikely because I cant see any physical evidence this has or can occur. I think most living organisms require a mother and a father. That means the first of a new species has to have had a mother of an existing life form. There is nothing in science that would say this is realistic. It just seems to me the most believable option at this time.
I remember reading about a wasp years ago, I may have some details wrong. It sees a certain type or variety of caterpillar, its specific, it flies down and bites the caterpillar on a certain place. It cuts a nerve paralysing the caterpillar. If it doesnt get exactly the right spot it kills or doesnt paralyse making it unsuitable for what it requires. It then lays its eggs. The little wasps hatch and live on the caterpillar until they are ready to fly. But they eat the grub in a certain order so as not to kill it and let it spoil while they are dependant on it. How does something like that evolve from mutation and natural selection? Apparently there are lots of other examples where it is hard to understand how they evolved.

Evolution is not important to me and I can only guess an explanation, if information becomes available proving one theory over another I will reconsider what I think. It seems to me there is some will or creative urge at work in evolution. That must be God.