conscious realzation

it seems to take years before you start to realize who and what you are
things can lie dorment in the mind for decades it would seem
it was only today that i realized for example for the first time that what i am is a heiven
strange you reackon maybe but thats definately what ive decided i am
i know very little about the term let alone exactly what it means per say
but the idea of me being a heiven is slowly filtering through to my conscious mind
and it feels like it's a fairly apt description of what i am and what i want to be