That's a good answer for sure.
For most of my life I was never sure what I believed and I still only went moderately off the rails.
Am I a theist?
Anyway, what we believe only has a relatively limited effect on how we live our lives because we are born into culture, society, family, legal constraints and an existing moral landscape.
I was just dreaming of being young and reclaiming lost opportunities.
You have a very good next topic for posting there.