No, mate, nothing like that, thank God. But thanks for your concern, and the kind thoughts of others today. I last a very good friend to suicide some years ago, posted about it at the time. Funnily enough it was at the same time as I was being accused of being Roger Williamson, or Alan, or both, or some such crap.
As you so elegantly put it, simply financial losses that can't be recovered. Not feeling sorry for myself either, not built that way. Just looking for a break. A nice left hander about head height would do the trick