my life is as good as over, page-81

Storm,
the fact that u are so honest here means , to me anyway, one thing.
You will be a very good trader at some stage.WHY ?
The SINGULAR common attribute OF the greatest traders ( and i have read all i can about them i.e. Schwager's book on the stock market wizards ) is something quite simple and disarming.....

lack of ego.

That is, they never tell the market what to do, but instead listen to it intensely.
Having the humility to tell all here means your personality is in synch for market success. All u need now is the determination to continue.