"and then this guy walked up in a gorilla suit and went "chck chck BOOM" fully sick"
A complex situation - contradictions morally and legally when you decide to 'join the fray' as it were. The mind cannot process such an overload of information and the adrenalin rush so quickly - relying on instinct - fight or flight. Good choice Macca.
Cheers mate
Get it out of your head, grab a friend go have a punt, a beer, watch the footy, whatever, as you talk it out with them.