As usual you completely miss the point in order to maintain your self deception.
What is that point?
You want answers before beginning along the path ...
I was born, the path began, it continues, I shall depart from this mortal fleshly existence, the path continues. No deception about that. It is what it is. I don't need answers. It is what it is.
and even more unfortunately you want someone else to provide them.
Ha ha, you reckon I want answers from someone else who has no clue about this path?
Doesn't work that way.
That's right, getting answers from clueless blind mice, dwelling in butts with a narrow view from uranus, doesn't work.