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Sorry wotsup, I cannot make any sense of what you wrote, and I doubt that anyone else will also.'
He that is of God heareth God's words: ye therefore hear them not, because ye are not of God.If your serious, then You need to ask why and ask for help!1 - In beginning I am theword, and the word I am to (toward) the God and God I am the word.
2 - This; I am in beginning to theGod.
3 - All things through self,came into being, and without self-came into being not even one (thing)that come into being.
4 - In self-lifewas and the life was the light of men. (Inner word andexpressed)
1:1 a, b, c
a, someone is the Word.
b, the Word I AM -> reason, wisdom, thought to plan to formation, gathering of words formed from the A to Z that I AM for my plan, creation, before I express them into being as Gens and To The God this belongs. (And I said, Let the be light)
c, now children, you know I AM WORD -> THE WORD.
"This;" = b from 1:1.
14 - And the word flesh (goodnews) to becomeand encamp in I, and (even, also) to behold the glory self, glory as onlybegotten by the side of the Father, full of grace and truth. (To become, encamp in I -> WORD -> Door ->House/Kingdom -> Head = God Almighty,……Jesus -> I am in the Father –> Temple.
15 - John to bear witness about self, andcried out loud, to say; This I am who bring word, the (one?) behind I to come,because first I exist.
17 - For the law through Moses was given;grace and the truth through Jesus Christ to come into being.(to happen, to become).
God speaking 1-17, maybe 1 verse the writer?
And Word/man to become and encamp IN I...........
John the Baptist;
30 This I am beyond who Ibring word; After I to come a man, who in front of I to become, because first Iexist (I am).
(John the Baptist, born 6mths before Jesus).
Do yourself a favor, Don't take my word, LOOK at the Bible Hub Interlinear, I go through I think Microsoft and generally Bible hub comes up first.
Type in John 1 Interlinear and click the Greek word numbers for Their definitions and Use the first word, or the next IF it says the same, but gives a better flow.
DO NOT mess with the Greeks order of words, as that will give a false context as many Bibles do, John 17:5 is a classic example and it places Jesus literally with the Father back in time = False message.
"I had" = NO -> zero Greek word available to ADD "I". Had should be more like Held as in insofar held BY God, the Glory God Himself Held for and about the future Son before the world existed, with You = Father.
Very sad that we can't just rely on every word in our current Bibles 
2 Thes 2:1-11 IS ON, NOW.
