Didn't Buddha (siddhartha) say, "Never trust a woman". ?
He wouldn't even allow his sister to take up studies in the monastery/university he set up.
Does this make Buddha a follower of Abraham? ( I don't think so).
DDzx, you seem to have serious unresolved issues in respect to your sexuality. Whether it's in respect to parental upbringing, or having been pussy-whipped, or just too many 'do-gooder ' counselling courses, but to be so apologetic and ashamed of being a man?
Maybe it's time you took on the responsibility of being a man and start living.