Probably a good idea for you to have the picture below somewhere...

Probably a good idea for you to have the picture below somewhere on your desktop to help you understand what you're going through emotionally. Most new traders go through an emotional adjustment period before they become a good trader, it's a brutal process. If you've got a friend that's an experienced/qualified trader have a talk to them about the fact you bought at 9.5c and it's 5.7c and see what they say regarding the TA and the FA.