Unfortunately it looks like your delusional mindset is deep seated and youre unable to see the wood from the trees.
I reckon you've backed yourself into a corner and you now realize your behavior is unhealthy
Things like peoples personal medical decisions have you rattled and you're projecting your delusions and frustrations onto HotCopper.
Time to check out the source if your errors-- maybe you got bullied when young or maybe you're a strange bird that's never fitted in with your peers.
Its not too late to get help though.
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