I really would rather not name them. It lives in his conscience...

I really would rather not name them. It lives in his conscience if he has one. But my thinking of him is that despite proving to be a self entitled and lazy prat who could switch in a nano second, who could hold a scam in his head for years and who gambled my earnings in different ways, he will doubtless never ever think he had anything to do with it.

there were preconditions for the worst. He had failed in some way , ( which meant I lost money not him), he would demand I buy something - presumably as a way of him compensating for his own failure, I’d say no, he’d abuse me in some way, I’d cry and that was it. Then when I said he’d hurt me his response - after the first few times when the marks clearly showed, was that it shouldn’t have as he was careful. That’s cold blooded abuse.
Not everyone has these same experiences I understand. Each of us have our own life to live out for better or worse

I regard myself as lucky - I’m alive and didn’t get brain damage (check the stats on strangling) and I was supported and cherished by a community of people - men and women - who cared about me. My life now is a million miles from those days and it’s visible in many different ways

but for those who think on here I’m some sort of bitch - what i decided was that I would never again put up with rubbish, abuse, lies or self deceptive prats. Might make me seem unfeminine or aggressive but that’s not my day to day behaviour- there are just a few on here who leave a bit to be desired.