"Biblically I'm a liar, thief, fornicator, adulterer, drunkard plus many other sins so I know exactly what it's like to be you but we are different because I'm not the one poking the lion through a cage."
That's your fantasy.
Meditate on the horrible guilt that others have put on you since a young child and try to free yourself.
You have problems as we all have problems ... but your imposed guilt is not yours ...
It's the sort of stuff that leads Priests to accept the most horrendous view of what's acceptable ...
