It sounds like you have been experiencing a fair amount of pressure from your ex for some time now. It is heartening to see posters like debono offer some positive advice and strategies to get you through this very stressful time.
Some more advice - I hope this helps. A happy father is a happy child. Personal happiness can be achieved by you taking care of your needs whether this be some regular exercise or activity that brings you joy. In essence I believe we are responsible for our own happiness. Children are perceptive and will see what you have to offer emotionally.
Secondly a question for you; How much power is your ex having over you? Personal power can be used for evil or good. As debono eluded to earlier, the relationship with your child is golden and at the same time priceless.
