But what drove you to reckless behaviour of drinking driving was...

But what drove you to reckless behaviour of drinking driving was it peer group pressure. Mixing a healthy physical lifestyle with destructive excessive drug consumption. Our sentient mind can perceive such behaviour without the need of a book.

Certainly if there was no mentor or mind prior to the human mind then these feeling or reflections of guilt are mere fancies as the life of you and all of us is ultimately meaningless. These are obvious truths that many world faiths address as well as the contradictions we face in life. This leads to the meaning of life and it's value. Does life actually have ultimate value and therefore respect.

The letter of Philemon changed not the value of life but the relationship between humans in their culture between free and slave. It took 1800 years for the message to find form in our world but is that a reflection of weakness or more a sign of mans over riding greed and exploitation?

The question of truth if one is not an eyewitness to the events of history comes from the documents and manuscripts that record such events. Commentary is useful but not a substitute to the manuscripts that were documented at the time of events.

Is it not wise, as any historian would do in their work, is to study the source documents.

There you will find the answer to truth.

leaving a destructive life is obviously a very good change and following a less destructive path of heavy alcohol use, and a lifestyle of self contradiction, such changes may fit one like a key into a lock. But is it true even though it fits so well with the tumblers of your own locking mechanism. Is it true the message that was given to you even though you felt the key turn the lock inside of you. Was it a pick or a key of truth? The pick mimics a key so how do you tell?

Look at the beautiful practice in Islam of salat, praying five times a day. Setting time aside every day for worship. Is that not admirable to one that devotion would be important a key 'tumbler' in ones own lock?

But is it the truth?

Again the only way to find such truths if not an eyewitness is via the source documents. The pick is exposed and the key will be found.