Hi again, are you a Welsh man? My Dad was. Just a thought on genetics. I am so sorry to hear of your suffering, it is awful isn't it. All these drugs which we have taken to try to calm the madness and fear in our brains. Some as you say, will label you as lazy, others as an attention seeker, a drama queen, selfish or just plain dumb. I often nastily wished that I could transfer just one panic attack or a depressive episode to them, so they would understand. I have a lot of reading to do on this gene now, thank you.
I was a smoker for 47 years, I had tried everything to quit. The only times which I managed to do so, was when I was pregnant. Through guilt and pure fear that I would harm my babies. Someone gave me some vaping equipment, 10 years ago, by then I was smoking 40 a day. By the end of day one I had smoked just 8, at the end of the week, I had easily quit. Unfortunately there is so much misinformation spread by Big Pharma and the government regarding vaping, but I am living proof that it works, my smokers cough which had kept me awake at night, instantly vanished.
I have recently lost a distant friend to suicide, it is tragic. So we must spread this information far and wide. Better to feel a little bored now than endure your brain being battered Music helps me, the louder the better. I am happy for you. Best wishes Jo Jo.
