There are two words running around my head: one starting with an...

There are two words running around my head: one starting with an I the other with a T (and I don't mean the geek field of work I'm in).

When I'm getting stuffed over by that practice I'm happy to scream the phrase from the roof tops - but now that I am seriously benefiting from who ever is doing it, I don't even want to whisper it.

After this nightmare ride, I'm suddenly up thousand and thousands - I can live with feeling a bit dirty