I disagree. There will come a time when the defendant answers the plaintiff, in this case the police and the public prosecutor, in a court of law and all things will be assessed. Up until them, sit back and put on some mood music, let me suggest a softer James Hetfield song one that is a nice ballad about owning up and being honest about your feelings and more importantly expressing them, Nothing Else Matters.
Which of course JACK is all about your third sentence above.
