Dear
@Parsifal,
I am so very sorry for your pain. I can see that you are hurting badly, I was thinking about you when again lying awake last night struggling with my own demons.
I have I feel, partly inadvertently contributed to this. My blundering way of trying to help you has probably made you feel worse.
That is why, when I reread my post after I had posted it, I asked for it to be removed. Sadly it was not removed quickly enough.
I was really trying to help you, but it came out all wrong. As if I was judging you, I can see now that is probably how you interpreted it.
I have foot in mouth syndrome. It has bitten me on the bum so many times. I, like you have good intentions.
So I sincerely apologise. My decision not to get involved in confrontation, as not only do I make things worse and land up even more distressed, has lapsed badly this week. It is so difficult for me to not jump in with two front feet, without thinking things through beforehand.
I try my hardest to let things just flow over me, but like you I get triggered. I know my daughter thinks I am far too much like hard work, I have been diagnosed with PTSD after I had that breakdown early last year. So my emotions are often on a roller coaster.
My dear Granddaughter was 15 several days ago and as my daughter has decided to go no contact, it was another very sad and troubled time.
I made another bad mistake this week, trying to talk about it to another family member. This did not work, so once again the pain was worse. I try to act on the old saying, if in doubt do nought. But old habits die hard.
This is not meant to be about me Parsifal, sorry. I just would like to say that I do understand that when you have been badly hurt, it takes a great deal of time to heal. Further mistakes are made, when we are so sensitive. Heck none of this is making any sense, so I think I will just shut up.
Please take care of yourself. This is another lesson to me to shut up.
