The only understanding of God I have is the pagan concept? Tell me please, what is pagan concept of God? While you at please tell me what the non-pagan concept of God is. Much of the RCC aligns with the Anglican understanding altough there are also differences. Fortunately they have ceased fighting over differemces. I don't know of any pagan beliefs held by the Angilican church so please tell me what they are. My belief in the existence of a God is not based on Angican or RCC doctrines or their understadings of God but on my own understanging of reality and of logic. I have stated that I see no evidence to warrant my belief in a God. I don't reject the idea becuase there may be evidence that I don't see, which, of course, depends on how I define evidence. If you call that trying "to weaponise like I hold the keys to destroy the concept of God" then you show how far from the truth you are.
What you say I believe (what you call my default position) could not be further from the truth, hey, you know better what I believe than I do.You tell me that you are not trying to tell me what I believe which which is false. --- Over to you, but I suggest that you stop digging with false statements becuase you have already dug yourself into a hole.
