Geez your life is worth more than stinking money, the soul is most precious thing in the universe.God is the giver and taker of life not you. You'll have to do some explaining to the big guy up stairs on why you cut off your life before your time has come.
Take a grip of yourself, do not talk silly, if you have good mining shares they will come good for you eventually. Always plan to hold on for long term. As Waren Buffet states, just imagine if you purchased some shares one day and the next day the stock exchange closed for 5 years, in other words you got to be comfortable with holding them and not needing the money.
Also if you buy a stock for long term, it may fall 50% or more so what, it will recover well in most cases.
do your research properly, buy a good investment newsletter, such as fat prophets, suscribe to mining resource stocks monthly to find out what mining companies are up to, great articles