Never give up ... life is too good ... you might be going through a tough patch at the moment but in time it will pass.
As for putting up with BS and lies, don't put up with it.
As for doing something to yourself I think that is a cop out ... you can always change your life and you can start today ... don't be so selfish, consider your family and change your life for the better ... stop thinking so much and perhaps read a book to take your mind off things.
