Had a scan of the threads Jarl and came up with yours.
What an excellent start too !!!
I know its been a while since Ur post but its a subject close to my heart, or should I say brain.
Now I know one shouldnt talk personel stuff on HC but when it comes to mental health its hard to discuss without talking ones own experience.
Some posters might have noticed my sudden dissappearance from HC a little while ago, perhaps 4-5 years ago.
Out of the blue, for want of a better way to put it !!!, I had an episode of psychotic depression which sidelined me for 6 months in a mental facility.
It was quite an eye opener for someone who THOUGHT they were back to normal after a few weeks and a bit of valium.
I clearly wasnt as when I was released after a couple of months from the mental health facility I went to the local shopping centre with the Wife and didnt cope at all.
Obviously my brain was still affected by the depressive side of the psychosis.
I went straight back to the emergency mental health care acute ward and subsequently back into the mental health ward.
THIS TIME tho I was put in the loopier side of the ward where the hard ball cases r.
Now after experiencing this U could understand how motivated I was to improve, not something thats easy to do when u dont see much point in living. Luckily I wasnt suicidal tho. Something that poor souls go thru on a daily basis and a terrifyingly high number dont make it thru.
And yes if u r experiecing such thoughts PLEASE contact Ur local hospital mental facility OR ring one of the excellent metal health help lines
Believe U me just talking about Ur problems WILL help.
This second stint in hospital was rather more serious as the depressive side of this attack really took hold.
So serious that my meds were either changed to harder stuff or the dosages were increased, and yes there were side effects both physical and mental.
BUT Im here to say, if it wasnt for the excellent care I received whilst in hospital I would have really struggled to make it thru, and eventually then being certifiably crazy to be able be back on HC again
But as U can see it took a while.
After my shopping centre relapse I wasnt going to rush back to a normal life in a hurry.
In fact I spent another few weeks in the loopy side of the ward and my situation was so poor that the pychiatrists decided to start me on ECT,
or Electro Convulsive Therapy.
About half way thru, or around 8 to 9 treatments, my situation had improved enuf to go back into the normal side of the ward.
Indeed the ECT had worked a miracle and corrected the depression.
Now this seems to be genetic thing becos my Dad had two bouts of major depression, MUCH MUCH deeper than mine.
Again he had ECT which dramatically corrected the depression.
Its one of the sadest things U can witness to see Ur Dad sitting at a table with no reason to live, and this was a vibrant,incredibly hard working man that had morphed into a shell of a human being just becos of a chemical imbalance in his brain.
YES thats how simple it is.
What the ECT does, in simple terms, is to break apart the damaged brain connections from the chemical imbalance by a mild electric shock to the brain, and with the help of medications such as Lithium, yes guys, all those of U invested in lithium for growth in EV demand lithium does have a more important application !!!, ECT is basically a life saver.
It saved my Dad twice, and it saved me.
Thats not to say this was the only thing that saved me as the mental health facility, and the people who run it, my psychiatrits, and most of all my Wife and family, particularly my Wife, who visited me EVERY DAY after driving 45 minutes to work and then probably near an hour at the end of each day to visit me.
Im not quite sure how She did it but She redefines the word "commitment" .
Thats not to say every days a bed of roses, far from it
but I will be eternally grateful to Her till they day we part company via a normal passing,
I HOPE !!!
Now theres some interesting following info that I may impart depending on other posters responses, and the Lithium is central to it.
Again if U r having mental health issues dont b afraid to talk to SOMEONE, be they family or the mental health professionals. And if Ur having a really bad time of it try and get to the nearest hospital with a mental health care team and/or ward.
All up with recuperation at work it must have taken a year and a half to get back to relative normality, and another couple of years to have the cahunas to start reading HC again. HC really can be a confronting place mentally and its my wish that posters respect each other in their discussions becos a nasty experience on HC may just be enuf to tip someone over the mental health precipice.
We r all very sensitive creatures when it comes to our brain and how it works.
We r the one creature in the animal kingdom that exhibites our level of intellect, BUT we r also the one creature that suffers the worst mental health sickness due to the pressures we put ouselves under day on day, and thats a direct consequence of our advanced (well some might dissagree with that word) society.
So there U have Grs mental health story.
And no guys, for thos that want to have a go at authenticity and truth, please refer to my number of posts and read a few of my recent offerings on other threads, this may sway U not to post in a negative way, becos none of us deserve that, no matter how much we may disagree on any topic.
Its also not worth having a go, particularly at me, as my brain, in the last few months has undergone somewhat of a mind-set change that has made me virtually impregnable to negative happenings.
I wont go into that at this stage. But that part of the Gr story is a facinating one, and one I might eventually share with all here that want to read about mental health and its various scenarios that play out on each of us every day.
Good luck all and I hope this post will encourage those of U who have depressive thoughts around Ur share trading, be it amateur or professional, NOT to give in to those thoughts, but to speak to someone U trust to help U thru.
Gr
