Resourced, I finally get it now. You slogged your way through Murakami's 1Q84. I can see how you became so bitter and negative :)
I don't comment on here much as there is rarely anything to say, but since I am here I will just say I am happy to hold on, they'll get there when they're ready. I'm in no rush.
Perhaps my approach is too passive for some, but I have more important things to worry about.