Well I have a ritual that borders on obsession. Every morning, I...

Well I have a ritual that borders on obsession. Every morning, I wake up and grab my phone from the nightstand, my fingers moving with a mind of their own to refresh my COMSEC account. The first thing I check is the LTR share price. It's become second nature, like brushing my teeth or making coffee.

Today, I glance at the screen and see the familiar numbers. No significant change yet. I tell myself to wait, to be patient, but my thumb hovers over the refresh button again. By the time I'm eating breakfast, I've checked it at least ten times. Each refresh feels like a roll of the dice, a tiny gamble that maybe this time the numbers will shift in my favor.

As I go about my day, the compulsion doesn't ease. At work, during meetings, in between tasks, I'm constantly sneaking peeks at my phone, refreshing the screen. I tell myself it's just good business sense, staying informed about my investments. But deep down, I know it's more than that. It's the thrill of the unknown, the rush of seeing those numbers jump even if only by a fraction of a point.

By lunch, I've lost count of how many times I've checked. My coworkers must think I'm glued to my phone, but they don't understand. This isn't just a hobby—it's my lifeline. The rise and fall of LTR shares dictate my mood, my decisions, my very sense of stability.

As the day winds down, I find myself growing restless. The market will close soon, and every minute feels like an eternity. I refresh my account once more, then again, my heart racing with each update. When the market finally closes, I feel a strange mix of relief and emptiness. For a few hours, I can step away from this self-imposed madness.

But I know that tomorrow, I'll be right back at it, chasing the numbers, refreshing my account, always hoping for that elusive rise that will make it all worthwhile.