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I'm officially mentally beaten
I made my first purchase at 10c. And have been topping up all the way. Did a massive top up at 27c which raised my average substantially. Have been buying all the way down to 15.5c..
honestly just feeling like everything I thought and researched is wrong at this point in time... 20k in the red and it just doesn't seem to want to end.
This post has no useful information, just really hurting now...