and thank heavens for that -------- I pity your personal situation living a life you didn't really want to and missing out on what it was that you really wanted to do - if you ever had the gumption to think about what you wanted
but, one thing for me is 1000% certain - your life, I would say no to if I were offered the chance to live it - or just not have one at all
I'd pass ---------- and I wouldn't need a moments hesitation
