"The seven emotional stages of grief are usually understood to...

"The seven emotional stages of grief are usually understood to be shock or disbelief, denial, bargaining, guilt, anger, depression, and acceptance/hope. Symptoms of grief can be emotional, physical, social, or religious in nature."

Think you're almost at acceptance @tt2000
You'll be all the better for it, it's been an emotional rollercoaster reading your posts. Tonight I played futsal with my mates then we had steak and beers at the pub after. Suggest you do the same mate, for your own good...