your continuous gay hatred commentary over years and your continual fixation on anything to do with the anus or bums or bottoms on almost any subject - including political events- such as your recently moderated post about Paul Keating and Chinese representatives which has nothing to do with the male rear anatomy - but it triggered your fixation, leads one to a real possibility in your case.
If indeed you’re afflicted by this issue, you will need help and without dealing with the issue, you will never achieve peace.
Oh - and your nic ‘rock’ - could it be clearer?
“The behavior described, where someone refuses to acknowledge their own homosexuality and instead exhibits homophobic attitudes, is known as "internalized homophobia" or "closeted homophobia"[1][5]. This phenomenon involves individuals projecting their own fears, insecurities, or struggles with their sexual orientation onto others through homophobic language or actions. Internalized homophobia can stem from societal pressures, personal conflicts, or a lack of self-acceptance. It is a complex psychological process where individuals may struggle to come to terms with their own sexuality, leading them to exhibit outwardly homophobic behaviors as a way to cope with their internal turmoil[1][5].
